It feels like I'm still here with you

Are you all right dear? 

Honey, I have a new perspective on you now, 

I was bad I agree but I'm the best you'd ever have found, 

My finger was bound to be tied with your vows, 

You messed up it all, I'm still clueless, I don't know how. 

Your face flashed in my dream all night, 

Your voice was loud but why I couldn't remember how it sounds, 

And it seems like I forgot.

It's no longer with me,

All that's memories of us speaking. 

How the time flies? 

I don't want to but I miss you and your lies. 

It makes no difference, 

Missing you now, it make no sense. 

Still seeing you tired and timid 

The part that loved you inside me gleamed. 

Same face but a little bit tired,
(are you all right dear?)

Maybe it's just the projection of "the screen" I saw last night. 

(is there anything that haunts you, anything you fear) 

Wish I didn't, wish I had stopped; your well-being isn't my concern now, right? 

(I remember your worries, your pain you hide so well from the crowd, do you need me there?)   

I don't know why I can't remember the last time I was happy,

But your shirt with a red and white square, 

In my mind, it's crystal clear. 

When I recall you tucking my hair,

Near the window of that hotel bar chair, 

It still made my heart blare. 

It's not that I want to care, 

Still, I do. 

Cause all those memories flash out of the blue, 

I recall you saying "Love you", 

And I care, 

Even after you left, 

I shouldn't have, I knew, 

Still, I did. 

Last time I hear, 

You're somewhere in dusty trails and a desert's charm,

I worry if you are crying with that eye like a star, 

Love, I fall away somewhere very far.

Everything seems good here still messed up, 

You know the spark died along as you left; you took away all the warmth of my heart. 

You started the fire for the warmth,

I caught up and burned in its flame. 

Everything that happened, you were not the only one to be blamed. 
Still, I wish sometimes you were as wise as your name.