Reason

always wished I was more 

It's still clear as a crystal,

In the corner of my mind. 

Whom I used to be, 

What I used to say;

If I don't leave this place,

I'll just be same like the other clowns of the play.

I wanted different, 

Maybe the reason, in the house I felt stray. 

Whenever I try to forget and forgive, 

Those moments screamed through my bone.

And I'm scared child again, 

All that I suffered and feared, in my head again started to roam. 

The house was just house but never home, 

I never get feeing to call it my own.

I exit quietly with the sound of robins and thrush, 

And dream every time as I sleep to have my own keys. 

One can smell my sadness in it's breeze

My scream still echoes here among the trees, 

There's nothing holding me back still I couldn't leave. 

But when I do, 

I hope I feel belonged,

I hope to be the dearest among,

I hope my heart and brain get along. 
I hope I 'll be loved like favorite song.