Now, I cease to exist.

Tell me one thing why my heart is aching when cuts is somewhere else? 

I try to move;
So that they might notice me and ask how I'm doing.
I tend to run;
So that they notice and might make me their concern.

But myself where they are, I don't stop by.
Should I stop and say hi? 
Oh no no no I can't bother.

What should I say, "I want to die? 

Or I am doing well, how ya doin'?" That'll be a lie. 

My desire to end myself I can't tell,
It's weird and not right.

What would they think, 

about my desire to end myself, about my hopeless fight?

So, I'll just suffer I'll close lid until it burst,
Until all the things screw up.

Because no one around here I can trust. 

And when it'll do, when it do; when it did,
I lied to them about "it was just for my project".
The razor sharpest one among I choose, so it will tear precisely,

I took bunch of it, what if one turn out faulty. 

And I then step inside a house,

Where I constantly survived but no more.
I closed the door so the secret won't go out,

The place where all my heart, I poured. 

I changed into the old dress, I became me,
Filled the tub, get inside and drenched,

I hoped some will stop me, someone will hear my silent plea. 

I gave myself one chance and thought,
Will I ever matter, I might after I'm gone.
But I'll never if I'm here if I'm present, no one will ever be for me; none. 
Okay then, I pull out the blade, the sharp one I recently bought.

My shaky hands wanted to stop, wanted to flee, 
Hoping someone will come save me, someone will hear my silent plea. 
Be Brave and Bold;

It slit itself precisely, perfectly.

Turned out I choose the right one,
It teared down my flesh, then my pain poured out.

All that was remained inside me; sadness, angst, gore all are gone. 

As I was fading slowly, the void was filling; all I wanted was a final halse.
Tell me one thing why my heart is aching when cuts is somewhere else? 

I felt ease,
All is well now,

Nothing to force, nothing to resist. 
When sun slowly set down ,all I felt is relief. 
Now, I cease to exist.