I know it's not healthy for me, nothing is.

If I jump from the tallest tower near my work, will I be okay?
Probably, "not breathing" but okay.

20 but so much learned,

Crushed soul, dreams already burned.

Why did you find me now? 

This isn't what you deserve, 

Even though our stars aligned somehow.

Gentle knock, 

I let you in.

I saw you tryin' to escape,

within 2 seconds, it's just been.

Maybe the past life sin, 

In love, I could never win.

I longed for this, 

Maybe that's why I'm rushin'.

I know you don't like this, 

You understand right what I'm gushin'.

I debrief my life, 

being abandoned was rife.

Still, gave thee my vow longing trife,

False hope; it won't shatter due to shife. 

But the voices in my head were loud,

they scowed, 

"For the sake of my warmth,
Who'll stand the tornado?
For just to hold my hand,
Who'll stand in the storm instead of staying home?

In the blizzards, in the rain,
There might not be sunshine just uncountable pain,
Will you stay by my side?
I know you won't."

Maybe they are as true as,

Because, 
No one will, no one ever has.